This post is going to be a little bit different this week. I apologize if I’m come off rambling a little bit, but bear with me as I turn the focus of this post inward. I do, however, think that many of you will be able to relate.
I’m coming to the New Year’s resolutions game a little bit late this year. It’s not that I didn’t have one in mind, I did, but I wanted to take the time to get all of my research and plans in order first. This year’s resolution like many before it is about getting healthy and losing weight.
You may have noticed, but there aren’t very many images of me on this blog. This is in part due to the fact that I’m rather uncomfortable in my own skin. It was hard to pick a photo to place as my avatar, and you’ll notice its mostly of my face.
Weight has been a challenge for most of my life, usually more so in times of stress. And it came to a head in 2019 as we built our new farmhouse and I spent the better part of five months living in my parents basement, across the street from where our new home was being built.
Yes, I live in the world of Everybody Loves Raymond.
So I Said “Stop”
In September I opted to try a different approach to dieting. In addition to trying Orange Theory, which I was ultimately unable to keep up with (not to mention the cost), I also decided that maybe I would stop dieting.
I remember making the decision around M’s birthday. I don’t know if it was the stress of the event or what, but I just was tired of it. I really didn’t care all that much for appearance either. Looking back on photos of that party I was really disappointed in how I looked.
Yes, the decision seems counterintuitive when I write that. But I’ve been on some form of a diet probably since the age of maybe 13? And nearing the age of 32 I decided I was tired of it. I stopped trying to count calories. I stopped trying to eat anything specific and really just ate whatever I wanted to. In doing that I realized that I most definitely eat my feelings and have quite a bit of a sweet tooth.
The result was also an extra 20 pounds in about a 3 month period.
With that extra weight came the feeling of feeling extremely run down, depressed and more short of breath with exertion than I’d like to admit. I also feel swollen, with my clothes not adequately fitting. At first I tried to love my body purchase bigger sizes but the thing that bothered me the most was how overwhelmingly large I felt my breasts and belly had gotten. It was like being pregnant all over again. Sure, it didn’t bother my husband, but it really bothered me.
That’s when I realized, I may not want to diet in the traditional sense anymore, but I needed to take a serious look at the way I eat.
I needed a reset.
Time for a Change
I’ve been gluten-free for over 10 years now. I have baking and cooking gluten-free down to a science, but that doesn’t mean I eat healthy. In fact, I’ve taken great pride that I produce desserts that always surprise people they’re gluten-free. Consequently that means I eat quite a few myself. I heck I’ve been known to consume an entire tray of brownies and a 2-3 day period by myself.
So after some hard looks at my life decisions and deciding that I need to fix things I went back and looked at all of the diets I’ve done to see where I had the most success. Something I don’t like to admit to myself was that I had failed to complete the Whole30 three times now. Why? Because it was hard. Because if I was honest with myself it changed what needed to be changed.
The only person that’s going to change me it’s me. And the truth is, I don’t wanna feel like this for the rest of my life.
So yes, readers, I am starting the Whole30. And I am taking my food blog with me.
What You Can Look Forward To
It’s really not that much of a stretch. The Whole30 diet is already gluten-free, so any recipe that’s Whole30 compliant will fit in here, tut they will have a much healthier twist.
I will try to keep things on the more simple side as well. If there’s one thing I’ve noticed about Pinterest and it’s many recipes it’s that you can get extremely creative but also extremely complex at times. But that’s not always the best approach when you’re trying to first learn to change your habits and your taste buds.
Looking back at the original Whole30 book “It Starts With Food,” I noticed that they recommendation to keep things simple. Start with a protein portion about 1 to 2 fists in size, add about a thumb sized fat and fill the rest of your plate with veggies. That’s it. So that’s where I’m going to start.
You could consider the next several recipe posts as a “back to basics” series. They’ll all feature ways of making Good Food with simple ingredients that are naturally gluten free. I’ll keep you all updated on my progress too, though I promise not to rant too much.